It just hit me!! WOW

The tides are finally starting to change.  I've been thinking a lot about my life and the choices I've made  I don't want to repeat the mistakes of the past.  I've always had this weird need to say I have a best friend, but no one seem to want the job...hahaha.  I guess the desire comes from my lonely childhood.  A person that would love you unconditionally, have your best interested at heart, someone who takes up your cause, but includes you in their life.  A lot of people would say that this may be your wife, but I don't feel that way.  I Think when you get married, she become a part of you and versa it totally a different relationship in my head.  I do hope that someday I meet her too.  In the valley of life that I'm temporary in, you can see clearly so many things.  One night last week I was laying on the beach in Waikiki, with a tropical breeze and a local hotel's band playing Hawaiian music in the background, and as I was talking to Jesus, when it hit me like a bolt of lightening.  I've had a best friend all my life! then it flashed again before my eyes.....yes I've had the same best friend since the age of 4.   WOW, I began to cry, all these emotions began to flow in me.  Jesus said he would go to the Father and ask him to send us a comforter, a best friend, a friend that would stick closer than a brother, this very person helping me now.  I can't began to tell you what the Father is doing in my life, but you will see one day soon, and as I lay here in a hostel, between a crack house and meth house thinking about just one year ago I had a three bedroom house, I hear my friend Jackie, say keep looking forward, and while fear pokes its head in ever once in a while my little brother Brent will always call to check on me, but last week when my Mom toldbme I was her best friend, that give me the courage to fight on, so I can make them proud of me again.  I am so truly blessed by love! Something good is coming my friends!

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